Writing is so cathartic, isn't it? :)

This resonates so much with me. I broke up with my boyfriend (of only 6 months) because he couldn't seem to decide whether he wanted to maintain our LDR (his idea) for six more months until my graduation or pursue the coworker he saw every day. I couldn't stand waiting. It hurt too much. So, I ended things. That was a good day.

The next few weeks were filled with bad days. At first, I wanted so much for him to come running back to me. I wanted him to tell me that he missed me just as much as I missed him, even though I knew that wasn't true. I cried every day. Melancholy. Angry. Listless. Hurting. Volatile emotions took control of my life. I didn't eat or sleep for a week. I was falling apart. My dad ended up flying down to stay with me to make sure I ate and slept and went to class.

Your relationship lasted much longer than mine, so the recovery period will likely be longer (mine was about 3 months). It sounds like you're getting there.

Soon, you will go an entire day without thinking of her, then an entire week, two weeks, a month. Someday, instead of raw anger, the thought of her will register only a slight bitter ache.

Continue a policy if no contact. I don't care what your cousin says. It doesn't matter that you're mom liked her. You must do what is best for you so that you can move on with your life--without her.