I just got off the phone with her. I said that she was right, I had came and lied about it in a moment of panic. And the fight we had after that, I wasn't able to calm down and just admit it. I told her I was sorry for breaking her trust and I fucked up and made a mistake. Part of it was the alcohol and I made a big error in judgment.

She said thanks for coming clean. I also asked again how she knew, out of curiosity.

She said she could see it in my face as it was happening. Even though I wasn't making any noises, my facial expressions and eyes gave it away, but she wanted to see if she could taste anything to know for sure.

She said she was more angry over the lie than the act, and she actually feels better about it now that I've come clean. She said she was drunk too and we had all probably had way too much to drink. It's also why our fight was so angry at the time, we weren't really holding back anything and were yelling at each other, and we normally never yell.

She also knows that her friends are attractive and said it was probably unrealistic for us to make that huge jump plus that rule so soon without more experience.

She said she still wants some time and space to think things over, so I said okay.

I don't know if this is a good or bad sign, at this point. I think I did all I can do right now. I feel like such an idiot.