Motivation and Inspiration

My ex pulled the same crap on me...I gave him 4 chances...yes 4..it's sad I know. I don't know why I put myself through that. First two times it was because he said he was sorry he took me for granted and then it was "there's something missing" I was devastated the first two times and I really wanted him back.

The 3rd time he dumped me, I was already immune to being dumped over and over again so I did no contact for 3 weeks and he bawled and got angry with me for cutting him off and he seemed pretty bothered I was moving on so quickly while he was still dealing with laying on the bed he made. I gave in and he dumped me again for reasons related to not having enough money to date me LOL.

Lame excuses..I could go on and on about what he put me through. Anyway the last time he dumped me he still wanted to be friends and keep in touch. Kept getting upset "why does it have to be all or nothing with you" and implying I was being immature.

So 4 breakups in 5 months. He was selfish from the beginning to the end. There was no cheating or mistrust between us. Said i was the best gf he ever had. He just wasn't sure about me and said he didn't know he would be able to commit to me 100% which is fine.

I was the one who was stupid and took him back the first time when it should've really ended a long time ago. Selfish and doesn't consider how I am feeling. Won't let anyone string me along ever again for any reason.

What helps me get through this is looking back and seeing who I was really with. I think about all the negative messed up things he said or did that I overlooked bc I was scared of being dumped again. I think about how insecure he was but yet sooo critical and shallow he was with others' appearance. And mind you, I loved him but objectively speaking he was not handsome or tall and had many many physical flaws which I still loved. He on the other hand, looked for perfection even though he was veryyy far from it, in his own little world.

No more of that for me. Keep hanging in there everyone!

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