This may seem sad, but it didn't occur to me that when I started writing this is when I realized that this is my story and it sounds crazy to me. Like if someone had told me these things were happening in their family I would be like "these people are bat shit crazy." Something as simple as realizing that my aunt's daughter was actually sexually attacked by my father and my aunt continues to remain friends with my mother is crazy in itself. Her own daughter can't stand to be around my dad, but they like to bring up forgiveness and it happened in the past. These things didn't happen 20 years ago, it happened 6 years ago. To this day, almost all of the women in my family refuse to stay at my mom's house along with my aunt because my dad lives there. Yet, you speak to my mom and remain friends because it's not a big deal that I am taking care of a person who could be my sister and product of incest. Its not a big deal that he was trying to turn my cousin/sister into his personal sex slave and had her thinking that no one could help her or save her. Again, she has a low IQ and I have been her guardian now for the last 6 years, My mother had us turned against each other at one time and had me believing things about her that wasn't true. I must admit, I thought my father was behaving this way because of his drug addiction, but he stopped doing drugs and I felt that he was owed a second chance. I feel stupid. Now I feel I can trust no one, because of all this craziness going on. I went NC and my little cousin reached out to me, but I'm afraid to talk to anyone in fear he will start asking questions. I don't want anyone calling me to say that I am starting trouble again.