Good on you fripple, you've finally come to terms with this. The truth is, no matter how much you individually seek to 'learn' about what really goes on in the world, you truthfully only know what you yourself experience, whether that's media fed bullshit, conspiracy fuelled paranoia, or otherwise, is entirely up to you.

For you to best take action and build a better world, you need to gain your own understanding in the sum collective of experiences from all sides of the coin. Say for instance we have a NWO situation, who's to say it's actually a bad thing? what use is it sitting around living in fear about it if it's absolutely going to happen anyway?

change happens every day, whether that change is personal or inter-personal is entirely up to you, some things in life aren't worth spending the entirety of your time on, there's so much more to the human experience that's within our grasps, the only thing that truly holds us back is ourselves, not the government, not the 'police state', not the illuminati lizard men. What's stopping any one in this forum from truly living as they please, from truly doing what they do so long as it doesn't hurt others? money?

money grants you more opportunity to do as you please in return for you providing some kind of good or service, it's materialistic, we rely on material in our lives, but even then, the only reason we do so is because of our own inner constraints;

reality is and always be right there, in front of us, I mainly come here to explore the many interesting world of ideas and view points that some people have on this thing we call life, I can't say I agree with much of any of them, myself, though I do agree that a lot of what goes on out there is at times, fishy at best, but why waste my individual capacity worrying about what's well beyond me, when I could find somewhere to best express my individuality and live happily? what's wrong with happiness in a controlled society if it's entirely within our grasps? truthfully power and order is one of those things, try to revolutionize the natural order of things, and you'll find yourself creating the very thing you wished to impede upon;

a new world order