What happened in your life that made you feel this way? I'm assuming that it's specific events which is making you hurt. When did this all start happening?

No. It just how things are.

It should not be an excuse. Do you have any family who can help you out?

It is. No.

Whether or not you think so, money is a factor. It is not a deadline. If you can pay them off then what?

Why respond if just going to say "Hey, that thing you said is true,oh, you're wrong."?

Money is a factor...but it's nothing more than a convenient excuse. It's nothing mroe than a deadline.

Why do you feel that you're poison? What have you done? Bri cares about you so I think that you should talk to her. I would bet that she wants to have you around.

many things. i could tell you, but you'd never believe me anyway. that's clear from your last response.

I did talk to her. She does. But hs'es knwn for years i'm goign to shoot and she's okay with it.

You're overwhelmed by whatever guilt you might have. You think that Alise would be relieved but you can't know that. You should really talk to both of them and you might be surprised by how much they care.

I'm feeling guily, yes. That doesn't mean i'm nto right. but it's not like you will believ ethat. that's okay.

No,

You think that Alise would be relieved but you can't know that.

I literally can, because she made that abundatly clear.

So have a lot of other people.

They're in a stressful situation themselves and would feel like they don't want to see anybody. Who knows, maybe they'll want to see you when they get out. But perhaps it might be for the best but whatever you feel like you've done, it was their decision.

That may or may not be the case, but it's not the point. I am a pposn. you wont agree. why bother. i give up.

Bad counsellors don't help, good counsellors do.

no, they really don't. Some people they help and i supprot that. but i have had many good/bad counselors. none help. "finding the right therapist" is not a thing that will amke any difierernce.

You just need to find somebody who you connect to

No, i can't do that. i am poison. everyone will be better of fwhen i'm dead.

. However, do you have any other family or friendship support

No. And even when i did, it doesn't matter or help.

Do you work, are you a student, and do you have any hobbies?

no, no, no.

Thee is no fixing this. You will not believe me.

I giv eup. Tonight is worse. i think i'm just going to wait for an oppoutunity and try to work up the balls.

i'm sorry you should go