I read your comments. You are messed up, and you definitely aren't helping the case of other MAPs by gloating about being attracted to kids. It appears from your comments that you are not just dealing with unwanted attraction. You're pervily embracing it, and that's sick. You're probably going to get found out someday and lose everything. You'll almost certainly make kids uncomfortable, even if you don't go so far as to commit a sex crime.

I think you should seriously look into treatments that would take away your sex drive. You wouldn't even have to say why you need them. Just say your sex drive is too high and it causes you distress. Please, don't keep going down this road.