My best friends mum hanged herself after battling through alcoholism leaving behind a 9 year old son despite everything going up such as her going to rehab, being happy as I literally spoke to her 6 hours before the incident she was so happy and she won the court case and it’s just sad that she wrote “I wasn’t good enough”. I’ve known her for 13 years and she was like a second mum practically saw her every other week I mean I even worked with her for a year. My Nan aged 91 has been in and out of hospital consistently and has said that she just wants to go. Probably doesn’t help my best friend at all that he got rejected from his dream job (the army) for a bs reason and he’s gutted and I am for him as well. I’m still unemployed and now and I deal with this shit well and mentally Ive always been sound but god damn is this an absolute shit way to start 2018 a year which started amazingly after a great New Year’s Eve. The worst part is hearing my best mate cry over the phone trying to make sense of this and all you can do is try and hold back the tears but it’s too damn hard, I just still can’t wrap my head around suicide. I react well hearing that “Nan passed away at the age of ‘X’ because she was 91 and her organs failed” but suicide and leaving behind a family just scatters my mind and it just feels surreal like I’m in some sort of soap opera or I haven’t woken up.