To everyone down voting me the thing u was going through was watching my mom die. She died in my arms and I went fucking bonkers, I was in such a bad place I went to a fucking psyche ward to get help. I had an eating disorder, was a raging alcoholic and tried to kill myself 5 times. I’m honestly lucky to be alive right now and where there really is NO excuse for cheating, having the passionate lovemaking with that guy gave me a reason to keep living. I fucked up and thought I was pregnant, was trying to get pregnant furthermore, I thought if I could get pregnant than my mom could meet her grand baby. I did get pregnant, but I ended up having a miscarriage and that’s really where shit hit the fan for me. THIS IS WHY MY BOYFRIEND FORGAVE ME! THIS IS WHY I HAVEN’T CHEATED SINCE! I was out of my goddamn mind and had nobody to deal with it with.