I have highly superior autobiographical memory/hyperthymesia.

To be honest with you it can be a living hell at times.

Imagine all of these playing on a continuous loop in your head. For the most part all of these things are invasive and you have little control:

• Recalling every single stupid and cringeworthy thing you have ever said or done.

• Every time you have embarrassed yourself or have been embarrassed by others.

• Every time you have been hurt or hurt someone.

• Remembering every horrible thing you have ever done.

• Being able to remember every good or great memory with such detail that it actually makes you sad that you might never feel that you are not feeling that at this moment and may never feel that way again.

• Never being able to look past anything that somebody has done to you because it hurts and pisses you off like it happened yesterday.

• You become a human polygraph machine because you have memorized people’s facial expressions and mannerisms and can spot when something is off. You can’t tell if they are necessarily lying but you can sense that something is off so you go down a rabbit hole and hyper analyze everything.

• Something simple and innocuous (even s smell) can trigger a flood of memories that will play on an continuous loop until you get distracted by something else.

Again... all of these things are invasive and you can’t control them or turn them off.