For the first time i made a true friend who i didnt need to put a mask to talk to,we shared laughs,she was the cool guy who take all the girls and i liked his sister,he was the best person a i ever met,i was genuily happy talking shit with him in the class,he even offers to help me with hot girls and his sister.He was the coolest guy of the school and we were good friends at school,but eventually my anxiety and bipolarity fucked it all,i started to get into a weird mood,i started to feelling bad at myself,too anxious,stopped enjoying it(we were friends for 1 year),so idk what happened,i wasnt in the mood to having fun with him(he had contact with the hottest girls of the school,make big parties and high quality weed and alcohol and one of the few who genuinly enjoyed my presence)and when he invite me to parties or to pick up girls i just make excuses.Sometimes i think i could had and awesome teeange with the girl i dreamed,the only friend i made and alot of fun,but depression and anxiety got me again

ps:i wasnt dignosed with depression but i am truly sad and anxious since i child

ps2:i am not sure if this will makes sense or i should post it but whateveri am druk tho