I think you should listen to your gut.

Six months into my relationship my boyfriend sat me down and told me that he had something to tell me. I also felt a HUGE knot in my stomach. He told me that he had slept over at a female friend's house, who I knew had been sending him flirty messages, the previous weekend and that nothing happened. He said that she asked him to drive her home and he did and she invited him in to take some shots with friends and he did and then he was too drunk to drive home. He also said he slept on the couch.

I was so upset. I didn't believe him. He swore on his life that nothing happened. I contacted the girl and asked her if anything happened and she wouldn't respond. I acted desperate and crazy and he made me feel desperate and crazy because he swore up and down that nothing happened but my gut told me something did. I chose to believe him because I was in love with him and pictured him as the future father of my children and I 100% knew (and still know now) that he loved me too.

Fast forward about two years later. We're still together and we're doing great. Every now and then when I drink I bring it up and tell him that a little part of me, my gut feeling, doesn't believe him. But it has been so long and he has maintained his innocence so the fact that I don't 100% trust him is my fault, not his. We're seriously talking about marriage and our future and I'm trying to put this one blip behind me.

One morning I wake up and he's laying in bed beside me shaking. His heart is beating so fast and I can tell how nervous he is and my heart sinks into my stomach because I know something is wrong. He tells me that he has a letter for me to read and asks me to please read the whole thing. In the letter he confesses to having sex with that girl two years ago. He said he couldn't ask me to marry him if I didn't know the mistake he had made. He said he was so sorry and he loved me and he was going to tell me that night that he sat me down but that he couldn't bring himself to tell me the whole truth because he knew I would leave him and that he knew we were supposed to be together.

I'll just say that at that point things were a lot more complicated and difficult and confusing than they would have been if I had listened to my gut 6 months into our relationship.

No two situations are the same but I 100% believe that if a guy is making you feel crazy it's because he has done something wrong, not you. It's not your fault that you don't trust him, it's his. And it's his job to repair that trust and you need to decide if you can trust him again.