[Part 2 of 2]

People around 30 would be having kids.. if you don't, you're an odd-ball. They then hang out with couples together. You're just gonna be a loser that nobody wants to be around. If you're not good looking it's going to be worse. It's just not gonna work out. So I go, whatever.. doesn't bother me. They're all chumps anyways. A good person wouldn't treat somebody like that.

Some things are a little different with me though. After high school, it was pretty bleak. I had no hope, no plan. Why bother, right. In the mid 90's I started playing around with trying to make experimental music. I'm not a musician though, can't really think of my own riffs. Kept going with that, got a computer in 97. Got side tracked thru the 2000's. Stupid multiplayer video games, then later social networking.

In recent years started back on the audio. Learnt video editing. Since I ran out of riffs, I borrow classical notes. Make my own instruments from sound effects, which plays those notes. Instead of drums use other noises. For video, test out abstract things moving to the audio. So it's a fun hobby. Better than sitting around watching TV. Gives you something to do rather than sit around losing.

Then along the way I started this thing called writing down business ideas I'd think of. Pretend you're a billionaire, what would you do. Write 'em down. Over the years, got like 365 now. If I could get a few M, then I'd be able to start on one of those. Then if that does ok, maybe do another.

Takes money to make some though. But maybe if I could get some dumb hit with the tunes. It's instrumental, so not limited to English countries. All that's stuff is in place. Before wasn't easy finding programs and being able to create. Might be able to get something going with that and if you get a stupid hit, who knows. They're all the same though, so lots of room if you'd try to make different music. At least all this is maybe something, instead of sitting around watching TV.

Sounds like you, you've got the same thing going on with the job, no girl, friends.. Not looking too good. But me.. I'm working on the tunes and video on the side. Finished my first album the other month after 4 years. Later stuff it's got to be more "wow product". So it'll be different. Gonna put more time and craftsmanship into it. Want interesting, unpredictable, twists, turns and surprises in the arrangement phase. It'll be like "next generation" material. Try to see if I could make that "wow product". In the meantime, you don't get discouraged at all about zero followers. You'd have to build it first, before they'd show up. So not worried about that, at all.

So I'm busy with this stuff.. if something gets going, could maybe try a business idea. One I'd like to do is this 24hr drive thru pizza slices.

It's a little bit different now than it was. Before, you'd be all woe is me about everything. What do you do in your spare time. Watch sports or something. Now I work on this stuff instead. And hanging out with people, is the opposite direction of where I've got to go. That would cost you to be still in the hole for another day, later in the future if you ever get out.

I don't have time to hang out with a woman, socializing.. drama too, them always wondering if they can get a better man. Hanging out with buddies, doing fluff things which don't get you out of the hole. It'll cost you a day in the hole, multiplied by however many days, per year. How many days is that in a decade. It's better this way without hanging around with all these people. I get to work on my stuff instead.

So what you call "losing" without these people.. For me.. that's good because it gets me more time to work towards trying to get out of the hole.

Maybe you can think of something you could do with this spare time. Gotta stabilize that base operation first though with the stupid job. See, even that job crap it's like, yeah it'll probably be bad but it won't get to me as much because maybe this other stuff could get me out of this situation later. That's where the hope is, working on that. You, you have no hope.

These people like girlfriends, and friends.. those would easily show up if you had money, eh. Nice sports car. They're all schmucks anyways. So what's the problem here.. probably not enough money. haha. I don't know.. but that's the way I'm dealing with my situation and it's fairly similar to yours. Except, I have hope. haha.

Here, I'll borrow you a little bit.. haha. here's those business ideas. They're just text files in a zip. There's also a second folder with just gif screenshots of the text files.

"365 business ideas i thought of [March 21 2017].zip"

https://drive.google.com/open?id=0Bzuyz7yNaSnbQW52SHBiUEJqVEE

Maybe go thru them, think of your own. Who knows.. Maybe it'll give you some hope. Cause right now, ya got none. haha.

I'm in a very similar situation as you, except, I don't feel this need to hang out with people. Working on my hobby stuff. Later there's this possibility of getting going at those business ideas.

That's the difference with me and you. This "plan". In a similar situation but I go "good" about not hanging out with those people you wish you could. I know those types of schmucks would easily show up later if you get money.

These lines you wrote. Sounds like you got some imagination there with the at least laughing at this situation. Well.. pretend if you could make a TV show or something. Might be able to use some of that joking around attitude. But right now you're powerless.. You'd need something like these business ideas to be able to eventually get to that point where you could do things you'd like to.