I am in the same boat and it's really difficult. I wish we could just wear what we want to wear without worrying. I am still pretty young (20 years old) but I'm afraid that if I don't do it now, then I'll never have the chance. I'll just get older and older and more and more hairy and fat. I want to wear my high heels outside but I'm afraid it will look weird. I want to wear my tights or my skirt. But I'm afraid I'll get stared at or attacked or something like that. But it's just so difficult because it's not something you can half-ass. If you don't put a lot of effort into your clothes and maybe even makeup and hairstyle, then it will look weird, but I don't even know how to do all of that or what looks good, and putting so much effort into it is such a big commitment, and when I know I'm just some man with a deep voice anyway, then what's the point? Aaaah.

And very few people seem to accept it. Most people I talk to about it either think it's strange or just don't care very much. I've never had a girlfriend who thought it was okay. In fact, they all thought it was a huge turn-off. Fuck this.