I needed to ask this for some time already. I have a friend whom I love more than anyone I have ever loved. He originally told me "you are going to forget me and move on as every girl/ friend I have had" I said that's not how I operate. Then we started flirting a bit too much and I realized I love him. He said he doesn't want to hurt me, and somehow we managed together to break my heart afterall. I kept it to myself mostly because I can't risk his mental heath. He is too important to me. I tried to not make it a big deal, even though I cried an entire day (I don't usually cry). Then we decided to stay friends anyway and be just friends, nothing else. I know I can keep my part of the deal. But he has all but disappeared from my life. When I see him he is so awkward, anxious I want to hug him and make him relax. When I get him to be a bit more comfortable, he starts again with crossing lines of friendship. He is slowly pushing me away and I don't know what to do to stop it. I don't want to leave him, I am not using this to get him or to make him love me back. I just want my friend back.