[Serious] What’s a dark secret you want to get off of your chest?

When I was 9-12 I had stayed at an aunts house. I would always go over to from time to time but never stayed, finally one night I did stay because my cousin was asking my mom if it was ok and she said that was fine. I ended up staying in my cousins room that night she was 14-15 at the time and when I was almost asleep, she came over and started kissing on me and dry humping on me before pulling my pants down and sucking me off.

I was confused at the time as to what was going on but all I knew at the time was that it felt great.

We never really went all the way because whenever she would try to get me to grind on her or kiss her inner thighs but I was always confused at what she was talking about.

It went on for a couple of years in various spots around the house when my aunt would leave the house sometimes, but it ended when my aunt and mom got in a fight and I wasn’t allowed over to her house anymore.

I never told my parents or my aunt and it’s something I’ve kept locked inside to this very day for fear of tearing my family apart.

I’m 27 now and I struggle to even find an attraction to anyone if I try because it always comes flooding back to me if the thought even crosses my mind so I just live a loners life now.

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