At 13 and 14 I started experimenting with drugs. I did whatever it took to stay away from home. I wanted to leave everything behind and start a new life somewhere. I hung out with a girl older than myself, which I had a friendship with for many years our moms were both single mothers and best friends. She was wild. Whoever she hung out with, so did I. She loved to party, and so did I. We took her mom's car for a joy ride, we stole, we got high on whatever we could get our hands on, and we felt like we were invincible. I had managed to persuade my mom to let me spend the summer with her. I ended up in the back seat of an older guy's car with his friend and another girl. I had taken thizz (google it) and had a few drinks in my system. We were down the road of a friend's party waiting for others (including my friend) to return with more party favors. The car was parked, and the guy in the passenger seat (21, and I was 14) kept talking to me and trying to tell the other girl to switch seats. My mind wasn't even in the same realm as my body. He kept touching my leg, rubbing my thigh, and I remember wanting to kick the shit out of him. I don't remember where exactly we were, but I opened the door and got out of the car leaving the other three behind. I just kept walking. I don't even know where we were or where I was going. I was so lost mentally. I didn't make it too far because the group we were waiting for got back a few minutes after I left and found me walking down the road in the dark. We got back to the party and after that, I don't remember much. I guess that is my darkest moment because it was the moment I realized I was becoming someone I didn't want to be and getting myself into risky situations. There are more, but this was one that while sitting in the car I kept thinking how this guy touching me and telling me all the things he wanted to do and how pretty I was.. he could do what he wanted if given the chance and I got myself into this situation. I was fucked up and terrified.

Now, I am a business major, carpenter, in a fantastic relationship, working toward goals, and saving to study abroad next summer.