At any given moment, my life could be taken through a heart attack, a brain aneurysm, or some other completely unforeseeable medical condition, to say nothing of the various environmental hazards that can kill me such as car accidents, natural disasters, or any other random act of God. Maybe someone right now is plotting my imminent demise and is after my blood.

So at any point in time I can die, and I'm not bothered by it. Really, I'm not. I gave up on worrying about death a long time ago. If theres an afterlife, then I will get to meet my maker, ask any questions I might have, and finally be one with the gods. If not, well, there wont be a "me" to even experience eternal oblivion, so I don't really see a point in stressing about it.

I tell my friends and family I love them whenever I speak to them. My friends always get big hugs when we say goodbye. I do everything I can to enjoy my time here on earth, and when I get stressed out, I blow off the steam as soon as possible so it doesn't weigh me down.

I guess what's always on my mind is the fact that I'm simply not bothered by the worthlessness of life. I dont really believe there's a point to existence. I believe that God(s) both exist and don't exist in a way, leaving me free to worship whomever I please or don't please. It doesn't matter in the end; we are all going to die anyway and we will never know the truth until we do.

But that's fine. I love being alive right now, and that's all I can do. Because if there is an afterlife, we can look back on our previous lives with fondness, and if there isn't, then we've spent what little time we have on this earth wisely.

Stuff like this constantly weighs in my mind all the time, and it neither bothers me nor makes me feel worthless or alone. Instead it makes me happy to know that I have the ability to ponder these ideas at all.