Exactly, I genuinely don't believe I will ever be loved by anyone. I've already reached my late 20s without ever experiencing being loved or cared for. People seem to care less and less about others as they get older, because they focus on their own children/elderly parents. You get told you can't expect so much of others, because everyone has so many obligations. Which leaves me out in the cold, alone, just as I have been all my life.

Also me not being able to show affection in the same way others do doesn't mean I'm incapable of it - I want to be a physically affectionate person, I love physical affection. But I've never received it, from anyone. I need someone to teach me, to allow me a comfortable and understanding space to experiment. I don't mean sexual interaction even, I mean hugs, linking arms, holding hands, touching someone's hair, etc.