1 year NC was 2 weeks ago. So much clarity and progress in healing, but it's hard - the panic attacks still happen. Tonight, at midnight, someone drove by repeatedly high-beaming our house, literally as I was laying awake full of anxiety (something trivial triggered me a couple of hours earlier) I know it was my N, because someone did the same thing a year ago, the night after we called the police on them (I went NC and him/or both of them were repeatedly showing up at my door, demanding I submit... ) Well, even though I was anxious, knowing that it was them did nothing! They can't come in here and hurt me, or force contact. And they were ordered by the police not to contact me. So all they have is the stupid high-beaming! Like, what is that supposed to achieve? (I do realize it's a "you can run but you can't hide.. we can still reach you", but still...) So the triumph is... I got away and managed to stay this way for over a year, realizing I never want these people back in my life again. And their stupid games are just that - and don't rattle me.