So, I dont talk about this much, but I have what many doctors have tried to consider as schizophrenic, but to me is not an illness, maybe more of a spiritual irritation reminding me that I constantly need to improve, and trying to show me the doors that require training that I am at constant frustration in my attempts to walk through.

So, at the risk of being too vague, I'll give at least a few details of what I deal with on a daily basis.

I dont medicate. I've tried, and that shit is poison, at least for me and the part of the US that I live in (a HIGHLY conservative area that prefers to medicate someone to the point of being unable to move rather than offer any kind of therapy).

I hear almost ANY person's voice. There are only a small handful of "constant" voices that I hear that are ambiguous without an identifiable person behind them. When I am in public, I hear small groupings of consciousness, or single persons, that I can look at and identify.

These voices are more than just a sixth sense of hearing (though that is the most prominent). I can also "feel" what a person looks like. It's like body language of the mind.

No, I dont have any super powers (yet! lol). I cant see the future, though I do have weird visions on occasion and tend to be more empathetic in general, making for some good tarot card readings and allowing me to know if im going to like a person rather quickly.

Most of the things I hear revolve around "training" the body and spirit, in what I can only assume is some kind of fourth-dimensional experience, but they dont give a lot of details, siting things like "you are only allowed to know when you realize it yourself".

There seem to be a lot of rules involved, and in the public eye I tend to "think" "like a child", as they can hear my thoughts as loudly (or more so) than theirs.

I unno, I could go on for hours about my experiences being schizoid, but I deal with it rather well and most people dont know unless they can recognize my ticks, which I have trained over time to be rather inconspicuous to the bystander, as not to draw more attention to myself when my anxiety does skyrocket. Those close to me can pick up on them and help guide me out of a situation, otherwise I tend to keep to myself and dont get out much, unless it's to hike in nature, or buy the odd necessity I cant get online.

I will say that this is the FIRST time that I've come to a forum, and seen support for people like me. I follow conspiracies and things that interest me, but any time "mental disorders" (as I dont believe I have a disorder, merely see the world differently) usually end with flame wars declaring that the person in question should get meds or be locked up.

Being locked up terrifies me, so I dont come out much. The medicine they made me take made me worse, so I stopped, and refuse to seek help unless it becomes something I cant manage, and I sure as hell dont thing that Jesus is gonna save me from this. Otherwise, if anyone has questions feel free to ask.