Being what I think is a good friend.

It's really tough at times, and sometimes I feel like I'm being taken advantage of. But despite that I've never changed my ways and at this point I think it'd be impossible for me to do so.

Example: four of my friends and I just took a trip to China. Three of us rode business class and one was stuck in economy. Despite being the only one that paid for a ticket, I was still the one that offered my friend my seat halfway through the flight.

But for some reason on my last day and their second to last day we checked into a room with two twin beds and one king as opposed to the four twins I requested. I'm not opposed to sharing, but I also thought it'd make sense that I get the bed the first night while my friend rides the couch and he takes the bed the second night.

Rather than share, or that second option, my friend just told me to "get out" of his bed. This is the same friend I offered my seat to on the way over. I had to ride the couch, with no pillows and no blankets, even though he had multiple of each, and wake up at the asscrack of dawn to get on another 16 hour flight.

My life is full of shit like that, and this was the absolute toughest to swallow. I'm still having immense trouble with it, I feel like shit. This dude has been my brother for the past 10 years. But what am I supposed to do? I can't stop being me, while I sat in business class all I could think about is how miserable my friend must be in a middle seat in the back on a 16 hour flight. And I can't just turn my back on him.

It really sucks sometimes, but I am definitely proud that I haven't turned into a dick just because seemingly everyone in my life is a dick.