I'm kind of concerned for my mental health, and I feel like it's either getting worse, or I'm noticing it more. I've had depression for as long as I remember, and finally started taking wellbutrin a year ago to try and get a handle on things that were speeding out of control. I think it was the right decision since things have gotten easier for the most part and this year was a lot better than the last couple. But I think therapy and medication made me more self aware. I've since been diagnosed with anxiety, and now I'm able to pick apart feeling as "this isn't me, it's in my head and doesn't make sense" such as paranoia, and social anxiety, and I still have a pretty strong sense of self loathing. So now I'm wondering if I should look at a different medication or a different doctor because I feel like something isn't working, and I'm going to get married soon, so my fiancé deserves better than occasional nutcase. But I'm concerned about saying anything because I'm paranoid I'll get dismissed or called crazy or told I'm making it up in my head.

And also my insurance deducible restarts in January, so I need to decide if I'm going to do this now, or wait until possibly May.