God I hate this shit. I recently got picked over a position for chief resident and it went to someone who is still a good choice and hard worker, and quite frankly a fantastic face in public, but just down right uncompassionate to the ancillary staff and catty with colleagues.

Meanwhile there are multiple sites, and literally exact numbers of people applying for them, and I was placed to lead the site that no one wants to return to and always seems to go to the resident who is willing to step up into the "somebody has to make this merry-go-round run" role. And you know what? Yeah. That's me.

I'm still going to make the most of the opportunity and appreciate that there's a decent one here. Because like the majestic sewer rat that I am, I will thrive in what ever pit you throw at me and make it quite homey. I'm quite good at rooting around to find something worth being curious about. I guarantee you, that when my year is up and I'm ready to pass on my torch, that people are going to want this site instead.

But am I butthurt as hell that I was passed on every position (yeah, there were actually 6) except for the one that people feel they're too above to apply to, even though I'm known to have the best relationship with the ancillary staff, I do a hell of a good job teaching students, and that I've proven myself time and time again as more than capable of carrying a work load of black cloud shifts without complaint?

Yeah. I'm butt hurt. Just not butt hurt enough to do more than anonymously complain about it on the internet. Man, the underestimating really gets tiresome after a while. It doesn't go away. There are way too many people who will look at a kind and pleasant person, and make the assumption that they're naive and incapable of original thought. I refuse to change for them.