i want to be with him, i have multiple doctors but i am young (21) and the healthcare system in Louisiana simply just will not properly treat young adults for anxiety because of drug abuse in my area... they have given me the equivalent of benadryl and i feel like i am stuck in this constant cycle of anxiety, along with him always telling me he doesn't want to talk to me or see me that much. then now i am just alone most the time with my anxiety and i have constant wandering thoughts if he even actually wants me like i want him or if ive lost his interest at this point. idk if i seem like a lost cause to him now but that's how it feels like to me.