I cannot handle losing/failing at something gracefully. Even silly, insignificant things like board games, bowling and especially team sports. As soon as I start falling behind, I start getting angry at myself and moody. I'm awful to be around, like a pouting toddler. I look at myself from the outside and I'm just disgusted with myself for this behaviour, but I also can't help it. Once the frustration/self-loathing/guilt of failure sets in it just spirals out of control. It's much worse for team sports because I'm costing the team points, and I feel angry at myself on top of feeling like everyone's angry at me for screwing up.

My solution: I only ever compete against myself. The only games I play are games like Cards Against Humanity, where the point of the game is silliness, not winning. I have never played on a sports team in my life. It something I really need to look into therapy for.