I definitely would rather be addicted to something that I feel is beneficial to my everyday way of life.

I have anxiety so bad I can't even go pee at my own home with out the fan on and water running. Oh using a restroom at a public place? Only if they got stalls and even then i rarely can.

And don't get me started about my obsessed thought process on if I turned my lights off or if my torch for dabbing is off all the way, or if I gave the dogs water before going to work. (I obviously always did those things but couldn't stop my self from thinking and obsessing about it.

Oh panic attacks you say? I generally average 10 a week some times more. So bad that I feel like my heart is gonna stop and I have passed out several times.

Driving used to be the worst, I'd get pissed the dip shit in front of me was moving 2mph so I'd go around him and just that little bit of adrenaline would make my heart beat all funny and then I'd give my self an anxiety attack.

So yes my 2mg of alprazolam every day is the only thing keeping me able to function like the rest of society at work and talk to people and keeps me from staying inside all day everyday like a hermit.

Some times Meds aren't for you and sometimes the risk is worth the benefit of taking them is.

Be smart. If you are taking them to get high good luck stopping.