Hey. It sounds like you place a lot of importance onto other people. I just want to tell you that you should place importance onto yourself as well. I am not sure how to convey this through words so hopefully you somehow understand what I am trying to say.

If you are really bulimic as you say, then I strongly suggest you see a doctor and therapist about it. They have the professional capabilities to help you as long as you are also willing to help yourself.

We cannot depend on others to be there for us. Sometimes, we have to depend on ourselves.

If you help others and give them a listening ear, that is very kind of you. Unfortunately, some people are not good at returning the same help of a listening ear. Thankfully, there is such thing as a trained counselor/therapist.

I do not think you should lend money to others anymore... I do not think you should buy things for others either. And that is sad to hear that someone stole money from you... Unfortunately, that person didn't return your money and it sounds like they disappeared so you won't be seeing your money back. I think you should report to the police if this happens again.

I also think, like another person advised, perhaps you can join a new church? If the organization you are in isn't making you feel good, there are many others out there. Just shop around and visit different places to see if it clicks with you.

Change is hard. It requires effort, risk of rejection, as well as overcoming laziness. It is a very hard thing to do. But I think that helping yourself is worth it as long as you are willing to.

I strongly suggest you see a therapist/counselor. I think it will help you a lot.

Best of luck.