You're right, I am being selfish. It makes me cry to know I'm intentionally doing a hurtful thing to another person, because in all honesty, I'm otherwise not a bad person. I keep justifying my decision to continue dating him, because I think it will more difficult for both of us if we break up now. Here's one more detail about the situation: we live in his dad's house with his dad. There's no where else I can easily move into for the next 2.5 months. It would be almost impossible for me to move into an apartment for just 2.5 months and I don't have friends who live near to my work (again, family is not an option). Also, I drive one of his cars. If we broke up and I had to leave his car behind, I would have a really difficult time getting to work via public transportation for the next 2.5 months. There's almost no way I would be able to afford to ship or drive my things across country and once there, it would not physically be possible for me to move all of my furniture and things alone. Knowing all of this, boyfriend would probably not kick me out and would continue to help me move. Though, with his mom involved, the next 3 months would be very uncomfortable for boyfriend and me.