Hey, I'm sorry you've been feeling that way. I definitely know the struggle myself.

I recommend using small doses of either benzoyl peroxide OR salicylic acid topical medication (this is generally stuff like Proactive that you see at the drug store - most products have benzoyl peroxide or salicylic acid in the listed ingredients). They both work in different ways, but it should take around 4-8 weeks before you'll see improvement. This has to do with your skin cell's turnover rate. Just note that these can stain fabric and cause issues for people with darker skin (although you should be fine). If you find that your skin is too sensitive, use the products less frequently/smaller doses/lesser concentrations. If your skin can handle it, use more.

Along with that, you should try noncomedogenic moisturizer to A) stop your skin from getting so dry from acne medication and B) prevent your oil glands from producing even more oil than usual to keep your skin moisturized - this extra oil can cause more clogged pores (and why acne gets worse when you stop medication - the oil glands will still overproduce for a while after you stop). It's also a good idea to wear noncomedogenic sunscreen, as sun exposure can make your acne worse in general, but mostly because these products will make your skin more sensitive to sunlight. BTW, 'noncomedogenic' is just a fancy term for products that don't clog your pores.

There's many other things that you can try too, like drinking more water, changing your bedsheets often, adjusting your diet, not picking at pimples...the list goes on. If you find not much works, PLEASE see a dermatologist. Don't let your acne scar your face. Best of luck, and one last word of advice: it's probably not as bad as you think it is :)