Reddit has really helped me see how absurdly fucked up my experiences have been in contrast to "normal".

I knew things were horrific at times, yet was still very much living with the wool over my eyes. I started answering posts and engaging on here and realized just how deep the gaslighting and continued abuses went.

I was trafficked by multiple members of my family and then gaslight about other abuses and the actual perpetrators by the remaining family that kept me too close for too many decades. Run on sentence. But still working this out.
I was then raised around and with foster kids, who were on the same level of trauma as I. I grew up convinced that it was standard for kids to have their stomaches pumped.many times as a toddler. That is until I had my own and realized that that was only what they wanted me to believe to justify the continued abuses.

I'm scattered and rambling. Today I started the official report against my toddler abusers. The cops have been very eager and quick to call back and I'm finding I'm not prepared for a new step every two hours.

I hope your parents were only off and not evil. Blessings.