Yeah you’re right, I’m just having a really difficult time right now and everybody is telling me different things and I’m just confused and really tired, and frankly scared. I’m really afraid of making a huge mistake and I know you’re trying to help, and you’re taking time to respond so thanks.

I guess I’m pretty “feminine” by the traditional sense, but apart from anything sexual, I guess I would describe my experience analogously as someone who is obese (stick with me here lol). When I wake up in the morning and look in the mirror, I hate all the parts of me that show a male body, just like someone who is overweight might look in the mirror and despise the extra fat and such in certain areas of their body. I get that I should appreciate the qualities and being a man, and I do, mostly, but it doesn’t make me feel any less like I wanna be female. I guess I will continue to ask myself the tough questions but it’s just so hard and confusing.

Also, just a quick question, one of the reasons I’ve been a bit more defensive is that many people on r/detrans seem a bit transphobic, and it seems a bit like an echo chamber, maybe I’m taking things the wrong way, I don’t know.