Crippling anxiety attacks. Work is extremely stressful, and I’m recently engaged which has only made the stress/anxiety worse (the sudden panic of worrying I’m going to disappoint someone who’s made a bet on me not sucking for the rest of our lives). All this made worse by feeling like I have to repress it, put up a front, and not talk about it.

Browsing Reddit at 4:30am has been a habit for a while. I don’t think I’ve slept through the night in 2 years. This usually helps me get my mind of things after an hour or two so I can calm down and get back to sleep. Basically, I just need something to change the topic of all the internal dialogue going on.