As an Arab, what's your view on sex and sexuality [serious]

Not an arab but as a girl growing up in Saudi my views on sex oscillated between the extremes of slut ------- rape and there was no middle ground. My parents tried to moderate my views to no avail as they were competing with my fanatic fiqh teacher (Yusra) and her tales of rape and sexual deviance. I had no contact with boys (besides my brothers and family) and they were the alien other, intent on either leading you astray or taking advantage of your vulnerability.

I have never ever believed a woman's sexual worth was tied to her virginity though, not even as a child, mostly because I didn't understand the concept and I assumed it implied that women who were raped, who were converts, who did tawbah or who were previously married were tainted. And that never made sense to me. Also I don't remember being taught that at school, just that zina was haram.

After venturing out of the conservative bubble and moving to the UK, I was forced to examine religion more closely, and I realised that I took culture for granted and equated it to religion. I still think premarital sex and homosexuality is sinful but in the context of my current society I think it is often inevitable, and as a Muslim I would place emphasis on discretion. Ofc for non muslims I apply "ليس بعد الكفر ذنب" and shake my head. :p

I do think growing up in Saudi affected me, especially the way I view or deal with the opposite gender. I tend to either blank them completely or talk to male coworkers as if they were female, I haven't quite reached an equilibrium. I don't understand mens quirks or unfunny jokes and how easily some get butthurt. Hollywood told me men were laid back I am disappoint. Lol. I don't feel comfortable around men, I probably never will and it doesn't really bother me tbh.

Also I think the topic of hijab is relevant, I begun wearing it at a very young age (9) against my mothers wishes because my dad heard so many horror stories of expats and their kids being preyed on and he told me it was to protect me from perverts. I also ended up being forced to wear the niqab in secondary school (12 yrs old) by my stupid قواعد teacher (she yelled at me outside and she told me I was disgusting and cover my face ON THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL in front of all the men and drivers you gaiz ; _; ). So when I came to the UK I didn't see the point, nobody was going to perv on you if you weren't wearing it, I wore it because my parents wanted me to. I did end up taking it off on two occasions and then I confessed to my mother and felt really guilty and I've been wearing it properly since. However it never symbolised oppression or suffocation to me, just an inconvenience.

Living in this society has honestly made me more religious (as opposed to simply conservative) because I find myself having to debate and justify my beliefs constantly, also given that my parents are converts and the rest of my family isn't Muslim the disparity is violently apparent. I personally like what the cocoon of Islam has done for my parents relationship, our family bond and my personal trajectory. No complexities for me to consider.

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