Yeah dude, anything can be ordered online now lmao

I really don't think there are any common themes besides nostalgia of when I used to use it. Up until very recently I was so good at controlling it and only used it with friends, now I only use it alone and get bad effects I've not gotten before.

As much as I want it to be like the old times, I guess I just pushed it too far? All of my other friends who used it back then no longer use any drugs and have moved on with their lives, save for one or two who did become full blown addicts unfortunately

Nobody I used to do it with including my girlfriend still know I even use, because I'm really too embarrassed to tell them and I feel like I should deal with this myself. I think as long as I truly make this the last time and ignore those random urges, I should get out of this cycle without any major problems right?