Basically, I feel like I've been burdened with just enough Aspergian traits to set me apart, but not enough to achieve the prodigal talent in any field that Aspies are stereotypically expected to have in compensation for social disability.

For me it's not any of this, but more so I feel like I could do any of the things you mentioned. Music, physics, programming, art, etc. But I don't have the attention span to stick with it, I've dabbled in all of the above and more. I just get bored. Fortunately, programming is finally starting to stick, and I'm really enjoying it.

My main issue is that I'm different enough from other people to feel often out of place, but similar enough that people still seem drawn to me. However, I inevitably do or say something that completely throws people off, because I don't quite think or feel the same about things as others.

Even among aspies here I feel uncomfortable, and this is the first time I've been to this subreddit in a while. There are so many posts here from people having major issues and struggling with general life. I'm married and take care of us and keep a roof overhead on a single income. After much deliberation I ended all contact (again, for good now) with my family in late 2014, so I don't have the family drama and issues. I don't have issues with simple tasks, holding a job, or taking care of myself. I'm for all intents and purposes "normal" on the surface.

But I'm also hyperlexic, slightly obsessed with language, devour books, etc. I can get lost in my internal world but can't actually articulate what's going on externally. I want to write, but somehow can't translate the vivid internal scenes and imagery into text on the page.

But overall, I feel like I'm in a weird place, as someone who feels normal enough to get along with neurotypicals but not get close, and aspie enough to understand aspies, but not entirely relate. I feel like my wife is the only person in the world who has ever understood me, and she's only done so through psychology courses and active effort to do understand and set aside judgement (and I love her for that and more).