I made the mistake once and only once. I felt like a monster. It also felt like exactly what she wanted. She was baiting me, yelling in my face about how my plans were going to lead me nowhere and how she knew best. Every time I would try to speak to defend myself, speak, I wasn't even raising my voice, she would interrupt me screaming, "Shut up! What do you know?! I'm your mother! I'm your only mother!" This continued for almost an hour until I had something break inside me and I lost control. I threw a glass as hard as I could into the ground, raised my right hand and hit her with my palm on the side of her head with some real force. The yelling stopped. The argument was over, but I felt at the time like I lost who I was. I sat on the curb outside hyperventilating, fully thinking the cops were coming. She never called the cops. I apologized for losing control, went to my room and made immediate plans to move out. I didn't speak to her for 4 years after. I very recently broke nc and immediately saw the same behaviors. I always feel like I was baited, but at the same time, it was my fault. I worked very hard on overcoming that switch in me and now when she tries that stuff, I move right into a very calmly spoke. "You will not speak to me that way. I am an adult and will be respected as such and if that is too much for you, you can leave and I will talk to you at a later date." Shuts her right up. I'll never forget that night though. It changed me.