Thats even more calming to hear. So you really do understand more than the average person how insanely fucked up shit can get.

That doesnt sound dumb at all. Ive done that before. This time its because I know its been all smoke and mirrors, and I seriously want to make a sober effort to better myself. I dont want my lungs to be fucked, especially during COVID. I dont want to ruin my teeth anymore that used to be one of my best features. I felt my depression creeping back/life stagnating, and thats even WITH pot...so what the hell is the point anymore? Overall, Im frankly just tired of everything about smoking up and how badly I abuse it. Like others have said here, I mostly only enjoyed waiting for my dealer, rolling, and lighting up.

And ok, yeah that sounds super familiar and the fact the process is so similar for not only me, sort of takes some weight off of knowing whats up the road. Your reply actually delayed a pretty ugly cry session for me jn, so that if it does come back, atleast itll put me to sleep instead of driving that panic attack. Youre a very nice person. More than you can imagine, thank you so much for this <3