I have genetically attractive features, I have a larger than average penis and I'm good in social situations with lots of charm. Women always came easy and never had true enemies. I had great parents growing up who had a healthy relationship both with each other and their kids who they both love and provided for. I have a higher than average IQ and many things people struggle with I can understand easily. I'm sure many people would do anything to have what I have, that if they only had it, their life would be easy.
Fuck that. I would trade all of it if it meant I could feel normal. I suffer from depression when life is good and when it is bad, I have severe ADD that was undiagnosed until late adulthood and severely hindered me. My inner thoughts and monologue never stop, ever, and when it directs itself to me, it is not positive. Despite outward apperances, I'd constantly fight low self esteem, self sabotage and low self worth. I do not get the same pleasure from personal successes or accomplishments as others, it does not feel good, I feel nothing. There's no chemical release that says "you don good." Crazy women, abusive relationships, extreme/dangerous activities, alcohol and drugs were the only ways I could get my brain to feel good. Most of my life death was not something to fear but instead it was seen as a release from myself.
I could go on, but the gist is that having a big dick, being attractive or growing up normally does not make you lucky. I can easily charm a group of people but I am highly introverted with heaps of social anxiety. Surprise! Everyone loves and looks up to you while but they don't have to go home with me and live within my head.
What makes you lucky is when you don't have to spend your life fighting yourself. Instead of being the guy that can carry/guide other people to success but never carry yourself. It was a long road to understand myself and though it will always be an internal struggle, once I figured out the why's and found treatment, I know I can still build a happy life and never have to taste that cold steel of a .45 ever again.