Oh god this is so me its funny XD as if i wrote it.

one thing that i have been asking myself is how the hell do others keep telling their stories and not feel they are burdening other people? they do not feel like they are bothering them or maybe that they bore others. How can they go on and on and on and still have so much to saY! to me it is so mind boggling haah. i can tell a story but my maximum length of it s gonna be 5 mins, and that is already extreme rarity. after of minute of speaking i start to feel as if i am talking way to much, ...then the more i talk after that one minute the more i feel i make more non sense with my words, that my story has no silver lining, now when i get to longer than 3 minutes im gonna start thinking that my story is boring others and i try to make it sound funny which i feel it makes it sound even less funny, i then start to make fun of myself so that i make it somehow funny and by another minute i feel like my one month of life has been told and i should give a word to other person so that they dont think i am looking for attention or that they dont think i talked too much. wtf is this thinking lol