I dealt with it in my twenties but was able to work through it by myself somehow. However it wasn’t nearly as bad this last time. I had a rope around my neck, the right drug and a knife that I slowly cut my wrists and passed out. All I wanted to do was sleep it away and when I say sleep I mean the long sleep. I will honestly tell you this. I never believed it would go away and even to this day I pray that I continue to feel this way. I would not do it. Find the way to live in the present. Start to say the things you need to say that you never have been able to. I never saw anyway out of it but to end it. I’m glad I didn’t. You can ask me more and I will tell you the meds I’m taking when I get home. Just hang in there. Making it through this made me who I am today and I feel alive.