Thank you for the comment. I have been going to therapy since we first broke up one month ago.

But maybe I missed some details in the post, he broke up with me only one time which happened one week after he went to AA meetings. He asked me to forgive him but we never talked about be back together. I think we both understand now is not the right time to talk about relationship. That's why I never asked if we were back together. I understand he need time. I feel fine to wait for him.

The kids planning happened before I knew he was an alcoholic. My fertility check appointment was made before that. We did not plan to have kids right away. We are young professionals and both at a age that we want to settle down soon. Our plan was to settle down after he graduate from grad school which is in two years. I am 32F now, I will be 34 then. Both of us were never married and never had kids before. I want to get a preliminary check in case I need to freeze my eggs now.

I asked myself why I still want to be with him many times. He is a big-hearted guy and he is responsible. He treat me and other people well. The only time he acted out was our last date which he was two days into alcohol withdrawal. Other than that he seems like normal people. I mentioned in the beginning of the post that I felt like something was off about him was about his depression. I didn't ask him because I didn't want to trigger him so I waited. The past two years has been really hard on him. His mother was sick and he held a high stress professional job in a toxic industry. A lot of alcohol and drug abuse in the industry. That's why he decided to go back to grad school to switch industry and recover in the mean time.

I am not worry about the romantic relationship right now. I can wait. We are more like friends than lovers at this point. I did not send him love texts. I sent him texts to encourage him. I am more worried about his wellbeing after the rehab. I heard back from him yesterday. He will be out of rehab next week after 28 days and will be staying with his father after. Like I mentioned in the original post, he will start school in 40 days. He will only be a little over two months sober by then. There will be a lot of social events with drinking evolved at his grad school. I knew it because I went to a similar program. I am not sure if he can handle it.

I wanted to figure out if there is anything that I can do to help. If stay out of the relationship is best for him, I will do it. I just want to help him to recover.