I feel the same way, but I'm not suicidal. I'm just extremely depressed. I work an 9-5 setup in retail and it's so fucking unfulfilling. I'm almost 26 and never went to college so I feel like a complete loser. Before I started this job I had a seasonal job which I enjoyed much more even though it was also drudgery. The difference was I had way more time off with the old job and I used my spare time to pursue my writing. Even though I have half of a novel and two short stories sitting on my hard drive I hardly write at all anymore. It's a rare thing if I DO write. My two days off go by so fucking fast and I don't have a passion or energy for anything anymore, even simple things like video games. I want to go back to school but I feel like it's too late now. I'm just stuck in this horrible rut that I want to desperately get out of. I really want to ask my boss to give me an extra day off once in while because I think that would really help, but I'm afraid too. I don't know what to do I guess.