My nmum used to look at me curiously and say you are such a kind good person..... I get why she did this probably because I am so different from her. She just does not get how people need emotional comfort.

I think i spoke to my nrents for the last time today, i dont want to speak to them ever again. my nm, she could not understand why i didn't want a hug from her arms, her same arms that hug my ndad, who treats me like dirt.

they are both so negative, they dont care for anything but themselves.

idk ive been so upset always wanting my nmum to SEE what she did, just to understand, this is a story that repeats often, her being horrible, i mean emotionally horrible, the lack of care, respect, love, and honesty and not seeing what she did. Not seeing it, making lies to change reality.

Im not perfect, but she has an ability to really hurt me. She lies a lot about very important things.

Anyway I was upset. I am not so much now, I know it sounds odd but I am not a religious person but today for first time in a very long time I prayed to be helped and for help releasing them from my life, help healing from their actions, so i can get on with my life. And I feel better so thats good.