I've been kinda down lately, although because of the reason I think a lot of you will think I'm a cunt. I went out the other day with some sports society (I'm at uni) and during the night I spoke this girl for a bit. Fast forward to when we're in the club me her and some other guy who's completely smashed decide to go another part of the club. We dance for a bit there but then I think she wanted me and her to be alone, so she tells me that we should leave the other guy with the main group. We do that and then she says kinda holds my hand and says let's go to another part of the club again, so now it's just me and her. Things starting heating up and we end up making out. However, I have a girlfriend. I pretty much left straight away after since I felt bad. The reason I feel down though is because during that whole ordeal I never felt more alive(not sure if it's the right description). This was my first experience of "making it" (got complimented on my tris as well that night). I'm not particulary social and I thought I would have never had a chance with like a girl like that. I know I'm a cunt, I want to write more but Im just kinda rambling at this point. Sorry for the shit writing as well