Male. 23. Starting at 375.5 lbs. My highest ever was something over 400 ( the scale couldn't go higher ). Wish I saw this sooner, but I can start by having a good night and resisting the urge to bored binge.

I know why I binge eat: it's an easy way to feel good when life is rough. I will say life's been better now that I'm managing my depression better than I ever have. So now's a good time to start.

You know how it feels like there's a barrier between you and the outside world? A divider that keeps you separated from life's experiences? I assumed that melancholy was my barrier. Well it turned out my weight is the real barrier. Melancholia is more a fog. Now that I want something out of life for the first time, I feel trapped inside my own body. I can't walk a block without getting winded. I help a friend move without my back aching. I can't look in the mirror without seeing someone locked in a fleshy prison.

I'm really over current state of being.