I often feel like I'm not a person, which is a great feeling to have. I feel like I know how I think I should feel but how I actually feel is confusing as hell. I've definitely unintentionally offended my girlfriend more than once rambling about how attraction works differently for me and her taking that to mean my weird form of attraction means that she's not actually attractive even though she absolutely is. I just care way more about her personality and I think she's beautiful, but it has a lot to do with how much her personality is involved in her fashion sense. But I mean I was also terrified to talk to her the first time I saw her since I figured she was way out of my league. Which I tell her that it's rare that I feel attraction to people whatsoever so if anything the fact that I'm attracted to her is sort of a big deal, but sometimes I say stupid things without thinking since I can't fully grasp physical attraction.