1) 1w2 sp/sx.

2) I'm laughing at this question as a 1. I'm constantly filtering myself in an effort to ensure efficient communication without letting thoughts/feelings that could negatively impact others out. It's a major challenge how hard i make life for myself in this way... just so much intention into literally every sentence because if I don't keep controlled, all hell will break lose or something. Often I am straight up sweet while angry without noticing... that's reaction formation. I used to think I was really authentic, and in a way I am, but there is definitely constant restraint happening in an effort to hide my negative feelings, however small.

3) The first time I noticed going against this habit and letting it out, I was playing a game that was really poorly designed & felt frustrated. However instead of keeping it in "properly" I was letting it all out and mocking the thing. Apparently, when I let my anger out around safe people before it explodes, I end up being "funny" and "sarcastic" and I seem "happy"... I was shocked at these comments lol, I felt so unnecessarily mad! I've since experimented channeling my anger this way... I end up mocking misplaced items and the like. My family has taken favorably to me doing this... they find it entertaining and are surprisingly responsive. I like me better that way, too, I usually end up smiling at the absurdity of my anger. The hardest part for me now is recognizing it enough to do so in real time rather than suppressing it, because it's so habitual to hold everything in!