My dear, ignore the kinkshaming in this thread. There is nothing wrong with expressing your sexual desires and searching for a partner who shares them with you. You don't want to spend your life with someone who doesn't share your kinks; the bedroom is a place where everyone should be on equal ground, and if they're not into the same things as you, then the playing field isn't equal. There's no shame in that! It just means they aren't a good fit for you, and vice versa. If pegging and anal play is a major sexual priority for you, then you shouldn't settle for anything less; finding someone who would enjoy the same thing might seem difficult, but the kink community spreads far and wide (ha,) and searching for that person who will enjoy the same kinks as you will be 100% worth it.

There's absolutely NOTHING wrong with you, or with your desires. If the men in your life are making you feel shitty for your kinks, then remove them from the equation. They're not worth your time, effort, or energy. You're not living your life for them, you're living it for you; in the end, you are the only one who has to live with you for the rest of your life, so take care of yourself, be kind to yourself, and don't allow people into your life who are going to make you feel bad about something that makes you happy and hurts nobody else.

Sending lots of love and support your way. ❤️