Hey there. I was depressed when I started. And it wasn’t about my weight. It’s just a black cloud hanging there.

It’s gotten better. But it still catches me out.

My depression has so little to do with my weight in terms of my appearance, but I think losing the weight is helping do stuff to manage it. Like I get more exercise. And exercise is easier.

I still get fucking depressed tho. And that sucks.

I feel like I just have to go through the motions sometimes. Take care of myself and my body best I can. Even in my busted way.

I hope you can go through the motions.

The eating really doesn’t help with depression. I get it though. I used to drink thinking that helped. It really doesn’t.

I know you’re struggling and getting professional help would be so good. I’m sorry it’s not accessible and affordable for you.

If you can get this book: Lost Connections by John Harari, it’s been helpful to me. Medicine is really a crutch to help you get on your feet.

But you do have to do the work.

Right now, that work might be crawling, not even walking.

The Quick Start guide here is really good. Forget baby steps: crawl.

Just start by building a habit of observing and tracking what you’re doing. Being honest and measuring everything you eat. Start with small changes.

Don’t take on too much at once.

Good luck to you. Please check back, ok?